Letter From Afar

I'm throwing my life away
Live how I want today
Looking for fading beauty
Some romance with a cutey
Someone to love me close
And someone to love the most

No matter what right thought
It's all selfish and right not
How will I live for You
When for myself I live, too
The world deceives me
As if it satisfies more than Thee

Will I be first or last?
The future will pass
As I stand in line
Will I wait a long, long time?
I might be great on Earth
Yet small in Heaven's birth

Devotions discourage me
It's letters and Numbers lately
Letters and numbers...

Though it is my true portion, Your Word
And I know Your way, Your Word is sure
With this letter from afar, O Lord
Please show me where You are